I tried to forgive him.
On Monday I found the guts to start taking care of myself and the most pressing subjects on money and debts.
I called offices, I sent letter, I filed documents....
On Tuesday it's all coming back to be. I guess facing the fear has it's debts to pay as well.
I have this urge to binge right after I wake up. All I manage to do all day is eat, sleep, watch crap on TV... and go shopping to buy some more crap to eat,
Let's see how Wednesday will go...
Well, it's not really about the money, it's about the betrayal you feel from your own father. I totally understand that. You do need to find a way to stop feeling guilty about doing fun things, going out and having fun once in a while. Oh, and I'm pretty bad with my money too...I have this feeling "it's only money", and I've spend a long time depriving myself because of my weight. I decided this year not to do that anymore! You deserve fun too!
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