Terrified

I am running my first 5k today -

with my company. It was my idea. My doing - I organized it and motivated colleagues to participate.

And i just wanna chicken out. Due to a number of circumstances I basically didn't train. So I am supposed to run 5 kilometers, untrained with a bunch of colleagues today.

The fear and anxiety lead up to gaining weight even - so I am at my heaviest in about a year, having to run 5 kilometers.

I am terrified.